today is a love/heart’s day. right?! my friends were asking me who will be my date.. blah, blah, blah.. what am gonna write here in my blog is for real.

here it goes.. right now while i’m writing this blog. my heart is perfectly healed from the pain, endless tears fell from my cheeks. so now to end those wondering thoughts, here’s my answer.

i am stick to one(owwss, totoo ba yun?! YES, I AM!). i don’t like to fool around or to be fooled by somebody. i don’t have the right to hurt other’s feeling and i will not allow anyone to hurt me again that way. right now, right this very moment, I CAN say that i’m enjoying to be myself, enjoying things i never done before. enjoying bein’ single. free from complications, free from holding on on a non sense commitment. FREE. free to do things etc.

when you are "in a relationship", it doesn’t mean that you are happy because someone’s beside you or to cling to. you know!! some of them are fooling and doesn’t know what they are doing in that so called "in a relationship". right?! lalo na sa mga guys na after break up manliligaw ulit tapos may "special someone" na ulit. duh! pang rebound lang ba tingin nyo sa amin? duh!! this not a game! remember the golden rule "if you do that thingy to somebody it will 100% return to ya". so stop LYING "liars go straight to hell", FOOLING, USING, REBOUNDING, to us girls.. i am not bitter but i think i need to vent this out.. may tinamaan ba. sorry ah, i’m very outspoken.. wahahahahah :))

so there.. the real content of my heart is to wait for that "special someone" to come. i will wait for God’s best for me. while waiting i will maximize my time. enjoying every moment of my singleness.. nyayayaya :)) kase there are things that you cannot do when you are married na.. like you need to make paalam and tell your whereabouts.. di ba.. anyhow, this blog is getting long nah. basta I AM HAPPY. FREE. I AM MUCH LOVE.

LAST NIGHT WAS ONE OF THE THINGS I WANTED TO DO AND I FELT LIKE "MY DREAM HAS BEEN GRANTED!". I LOVE WATCHING LIVE BANDS. SO THERE.. I WENT IN U.P. DILIMAN SUNKEN GARDEN AND THERE I BOUGHT TICKET FOR ONLY 85 PESOS. SULIT NAMAN! I WAS WITH MY COUSIN IN FRONT OF THE STAGE. WAHAHAHAHAHAH :)) I LOVED THAT NIGHT.

SO THE FIRST HOUR ITS KINDA WALANG BUHAY BECAUSE AM WAITING FOR MY FAVORITE BAND TO SING, GRABE AFTER A DECADE PA.. SO I WAITED. "IT PAYS TO WAIT AND IT IS WORTH WAITING FOR". I THINK I WAITED TIL 3:00AM. REALLY!

UNEXPECTEDLY, CHAD PERALTA OF PDA(PINOY DREAM ACADEMY) WAS THERE. HE SANG. WEE!! SO, SO HAPPY! "JUST GIVE ME SUNSHINE FROM YOUR SMILE ITS ALL I NEED TO MAKE MY LIFE WORTHWHILE". LAUGHS. I SAVED MY VOICE AND SCREAMED(CHADDDDD!!!! YEAH!) WHILE HE WAS SINGING. THEN HE STARED AT ME AND SMILE. SHUCKS! I FEEL LIKE I AM AN ICE MELTING AT A BOILING POINT. LOL :)) THEN AFTER CHAD SANG, HERE GOES YAEL YUZON OF SPONGECOLA. YAEL! GOOSE BUMPS!

THE REST OF THE BANDS ARE EXCELLENT. ONE MORE KIAN, THE VOCALIST OF CALLALILY WAS THERE ALSO. HE’S PERFECT! HAHAHAHAH.. MY STARS! LAUGHS. LOL :))

I’M HOME AT 3:30AM. YEAH! YOU READ IT RIGHT. BREAKING THE RULES?! OF COURSE NOT MY MOM KNOWS IT AND EVEN ALLOWED ME TO GO THERE. YEAH! PERO MAY KASAMA.

IN THAT FAIR I MET NEW FRIENDS. THEY ARE WARM HEARTED AND NICE. SHOUT OUTS TO GERDA, CORIEEN AND TRIXIE. SEE YOU AGAIN.

YEAH! SUPPORT THE OPM BANDS. BUY ORIGINAL CD’s AND DVD’s. THAT’S RIGHT! 

ROCK ON! YEAH! LAUGHS. :))   

7 days from now, its my birthday. Waa! I’m not getting younger anymore. Hmm.. It is good because I passed the crucial stage of my life being TEEN ager. Haay. The ups and downs, "can’t understand syndrome", questions, questions, questions. Never ending questions, why? why? why? .. Haay. Thank God I’m over with it.

Now, I have 7 days to enjoy my last 20 years then I’m turning 21. Whew! Responsiblity. Relationship. >> It scares me off. Whew! Oh, Lord though I cannot see the end of the tunnel I know you are there holding my grip. Encourage me more and never let go of me. God, you are ALL I need. *sigh*

Melancholic! Haay. Anyways.. I am blessed.

> I’m still alive.

> I am a walking miracle.

> Best Mom (My Bestfriend, Sister,… The best! I love her soooo much.)

> I have good friends. REAL friends through thick and thin.

> I have a much, much better life.

> I love my ministry

      lastly but not the least…

> I GOT JESUS CHRIST… He loves me. My past, present and future and He stays the samem yesterday, today and forevermore. I love you Jesus Christ. Wanna shout "HALLELUJAH"….

JESUS freaks!

JESUS CHRIST

I have nothing left by you oh, Lord.

…

Let It Go
By T. D. Jakes

There are people who can walk away from you.
When people can walk away from you: let them
walk.

When people can walk away from you let them
walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that
left. The bible said that, they came out from us
that it might be made manifest that they were not
for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they
would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19]

People leave you because they are not joined to
you. And if they are not joined to you, you can’t
make them stay.

Let them go.

And it doesn’t mean that they are a bad person it
just means that their part in the story is over. And
you’ve got to know when people’s part in your story
is over so that you don’t keep trying to raise the
dead. You’ve got to know when it’s dead. You’ve
got to know when it’s over.

Whatever God means for me to have He’ll give it to
me. And if it takes too much sweat I don’t need it.
Stop begging people to stay.

Let them go!!

If you are holding on to something that doesn’t
belong to you and was never intended for your life,
then you need to……

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to past hurts and pains ……

LET IT GO!!!

If someone can’t treat you right, love you back, and
see your worth…..

LET IT GO!!!

If someone has angered you ……..

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and
revenge……

LET IT GO!!!

If you are involved in a wrong relationship or
addiction……

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets
your needs or talents …

LET IT GO!!!

If you have a bad attitude…….

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep judging others to make yourself feel
better……

LET IT GO!!!

If you are struggling with the healing of a broken
relationship…….

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep trying to help someone who won’t even
try to help themselves……

LET IT GO!!!

If you’re feeling depressed and stressed ………

LET IT GO!!!

If there is a particular situation that you are so
used to handling yourself and God is saying "take
your hands off of it," then you need to……

LET IT GO!!!

Let the past be the past. Forget the former things.
GOD is doing a new thing for 2006!!!

LET IT GO!!!

Get Right or Get Left.. think about it, and then …

LET IT GO!!!

"The Battle is the Lord’s!"

* thanks eina for giving me the real version..

I can’t help it but post this from my bulletin board.. true!

Letting go + Forgiveness + Moving On = FREEDOM! hahahaha

There are people who can walk away from you.
And when people can walk away from you: let
them walk.

LET IT GO!!!

LET GO and MOVE ON.. that’s life!

Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It’s not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel

More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn’t have to say that you love me, yeah
Cos I’d already know

What would you do if I took those words into
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn’t make things new
Just by saying I love you

Now I’ve tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hand and touch me
Hold me close don’t ever let me go

More than words is all you ever needed me to show
Then you wouldn’t have to say that you love me, yeah
Cos I’d already know

More than words….

*Frankie J

Last day of the rest of my life
I wish I would’ve known
Cause I didn’t kiss my mama goodbye

I didn’t tell her that I loved her, how much I cared
Or thank my pops for all the talks
And all the wisdom he shared

Unaware, I just did what I always do
Everyday, the same routine
Before I skate off to school

But who knew that this day wasn’t like the rest
Instead of taking a test
I took two to the chest

Call me blind, but I didn’t see it coming
Everybody was running
But I couldn’t hear nothing

Except gun blasts, it happened so fast
I don’t really know this kid
Even though I sit by him in class

Maybe this kid was reaching out for love
Or maybe for a moment
He forgot who he was
Or maybe this kid just wanted to be hugged
Whatever it was
I know it’s because

We are, We are, (We are) the youth of the nation
We are, We are, (We are) youth of the nation
We are, We are, (We are) the youth of the nation
We are, We are, (We are) youth of the nation

Little Suzy, she was only twelve
She was given the world
With every chance to excel

Hang with the boys and hear the stories they tell
She might act kind of proud
But no respect for herself

She finds love in all the wrong places
The same situations
Just different faces

Changed up her pace since her daddy left her
Too bad he never told her
She deserved much better

Johnny boy always played the fool
He broke all the rules
So you would think he was cool

He was never really one of the guys
No matter how hard he tried
Often thought of suicide

It’s kind of hard when you ain’t got no friends
He put his life to an end
They might remember him then

You cross the line and there’s no turning back
Told the world how he felt
With the sound of a gat

We are, We are, (We are) the youth of the nation
We are, We are, (We are) youth of the nation
We are, We are, (We are) the youth of the nation
We are, We are, (We are) youth of the nation

Na, na, na , na, na, na, na, na, na, na
na, na, na

Who’s to blame for the lives that tragedies claim
No matter what you say
It don’t take away the pain

That I feel inside, I’m tired of all the lies
Don’t nobody know why
It’s the blind leading the blind

I guess that’s the way the story goes
Will it ever make sense
Somebody’s got to know

There’s got to be more to life than this
There’s got to be more to everything
I thought exists

Chorus:
We are, We are, the youth of the nation
We are, We are, youth of the nation
We are, We are, (We are, we are) the youth of the nation
We are, We are, (We are, we are) youth of the nation
We are, We are, (We are, we are) the youth of the nation
(the youth of the nation)
We are, We are, (We are, we are) youth of the nation
(youth of the nation)
We are, We are, (We are, we are) the youth of the nation
(the youth of the nation)
We are, We are, (We are, we are) youth of the nation
(youth of the nation)

We are…
Youth of the nation
We are…
Youth of the nation
We are…
Youth of the nation
We are…

*P.O.D

With all I'm holding inside
With all my hopes and desires
And all the dreams that I've dreamt

With all I'm hoping to be
And all that the world will bring
And all that fails to compare

You say You want all of me
I wouldn't have it any other way

I've got a Saviour and He's living in me
WHOA

I wanna know
I wanna know You today

And You're the best thing that has happened to me
And the world will never take
The world will never take You away

No-one could ever take You away

* hillsong united

Your mercy found me
upon a broken road
lifted me beyond my failing

into your glory
my sin and shame dissolved
and now forever yours
i’ll stand

in love never to end
to call you more than Lord
glorious friend

*** so i throw my life upon all
that you are
’cause i know you gave it all
for me
and when all else fades
my soul will dance
with you
where the love lasts forever

^^ and forever i will sing
Lord forever i will sing
how you gave Your life for me
’cause You saved me
Lord You saved me