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WHATEVER IT TAKES I’LL LIVE FOR GOD’S GLORY! I AM DESPERATE AND TRULY MADLY DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH JESUS CHRIST! I WANT TO SEE MY NATION–PHILIPPINES, TURN AGAIN TO JESUS CHRIST, BOWING BEFORE HIM IN HOLY REVERENCE IN HOLY FEAR. CRYING BEFORE HIM, "HOLY, HOLY, YOU ARE HOLY GOD!" PEOPLE SING, "HOSANNA, HOSANNA, HOSANNA IN THE HIGHEST." EVERYONE WILL LOVE GOD WITH ALL THAT THEY ARE, BEING TRUE BEFORE THE ALMIGHTY GOD. SEEING THIS NATION WAVING THE BANNER OF JESUS CHRIST ACROSS THE LAND. THAT ALL THE STREET CHILDREN WILL HAVE FOOD AND CAN EAT 3 TIMES A DAY OR EVEN 5 TIMES A DAY. THAT EVERYONE WILL BE UNITED IN THEIR RELATIONSHIPS WITH THEIR SONS/DAUGHTERS, PARENTS, HUSBAND/WIFE, FRIENDS.. THAT THERE WILL BE NO BROKEN HOMES, BATTERED WIFE/HUSBAND, DRUG ADDICTS, SNATCHERS, MURDERERS.. THAT EVERYONE WILL LIVE IN PEACE AND HARMONY. THAT THERE WILL BE NO CRIMES, THAT IT’LL BECOME ZERO. I KNOW THIS IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR SOME PEOPLE AND EVEN WEIRD BUT HEY NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE WITH GOD! UNBELIEVABLE THINGS HAPPENS IN A WAY YOU ARE NOT EXPECTING! OH, LORD INVADE OUR LAND FOR YOUR GREAT GLORY! INVADE OUR MIND/HEART, OUR SCHOOLS.. ITS COMING, ITS COMING.. BE READY FOR GOD’S INVASION! WHOOOOA! JESUS!! WE WANNA SEE YOU! WE’RE DESPERATE FOR YOU WITH BOTH HANDS RAISED AND WE KNOW LORD YOU ARE LISTENING TO OUR VOICES.. WE WAIT FOR YOU PATIENTLY TO SEE YOU. GIVE US SPECIAL STRENGTH TO HOLD ON TO YOU AND NEVER, NEVER GIVE UP NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS IN OUR LIFE, LORD. THAT WE WILL PERSEVERE TIL WE SEE YOU FACE TO FACE IN ETERNAL LIFE. WHEW!

• SMILE to strangers to brighten up their day.
• Give EXTRA GRACE to everyone because someone is giving extra grace to you!
• Spend TIME with your friends/love ones. life is short! cherish every <seconds> moments. everyday is a SPECiAL day! LiVE like it is your last day on earth because tomorrow may never come. nothing lasts forever. everything is just TEMPORARY.

eventhough i walk through the valley of shadows of death,

i will fear NO evil!

eventhough i walk through the thorns of pain in darkness,

i will take the pain!

though it is blurry, i LiVE by FAiTH for i know JESUS CHRIST is walking with me though sometimes i don’t feel HIS presence i know He’s holding my hands.

whom then shall i fear?

for i know after all these pain in sufferings, i will see the LiGHT from a far which leads to eternal LiFE and HAPPiNESS with my Father God in Heaven.

"take heart and be courageous"

all these troubles will end soon and all these things that’s happening now will GLORiFY GOD! HE will be lifted up! HIGHER ABOVE!

I REMAIN IN YOU LORD. ~John 15:4~

STILL IN YOUR PRESENCE.

You Never Let Go

Even though I walk through the valley
Of the shadow of death,
Your perfect love is casting out fear.
And even when I´m caught in the middle
Of the storms of this life,
I won´t turn back; I know You are near.

And I will fear no evil,
For my God is with me.
And if my God is with me,
Whom then shall I fear? Whom then shall I fear?

O no, You never let go,
Through the calm and through the storm
O no, You never let go,
In every high and every low
O no, You never let go, Lord You never let go of me.

And I can see a light that is coming
for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare.
And there will be an end to these troubles,
But until that day comes,
We´ll live to know You here on the earth.

Yes, I can see a light that is coming
For the heart that holds on,
And there will be an end
To these troubles,
But until that day comes,
Still I will praise You,
Still I will praise You.

Bible reference: Psalm 23
Matt and Beth Redman c2006 Thankyou Music (administered worldwide by EMI CMG Publishing, excluding the UK which is administered by Kingswaysongs.com)

when i think of the memories of yesterday..

the "childhood memories" where everyone is soo INNOCENT

and all you can THINK is pure thoughts..

no malice, your worldliness is not yet awaken..

you CHERISH that moment.. when you found out that LOVE is pure and genuine..

now, we’re old, the feelings still the same, its the physical appearance that changed and you become matured! BUT the feelings will always be there.. it will ALWAYS be a part of you..

our heart, where emotion is.. doesn’t grow old.. our heart remembers and will NOT forget..

the times we had yesterday will always be with me.. i will miss you but its not the place, its the memories we had.. it is in store in your memory bank!!

now, i’m going.. shucks! i will miss you.. our friendship, laughs, innocence, secrets.. i will surely CRY.. i will have a hard time to adjust.. oh, no.. i don’t like to cry.. ang hirap pigilin ng luha..

"babaha ng luha.. luha ng kahapon..

na kay saya, parang lahat ay ayos lang..

walang problema, walang malisya,

puro tawanan lang at laro ng walang humpay..

akala natin ito’y hindi matatapos, pero ngayon..

ngayon, bilang na ang mga araw upang ika’y masilayan sa di kalayuan.. mami miss mo kaya ako? tanong ko sa aking utak..

hanggang tingin ka lang ba, di mo ba ako kakausapin?..

sana di ka rin umiyak tulad ng pagluha ko ngayon pag iyong nalaman ako’y lilisan na sa lugar kung saan tayo’y nagkakilala.."

i cannot believe i’m writing this..

for the past two weeks i am down.. the sadness is ever present! no matter what i do it hides deep down my heart’s vein.. it’s soo REAL! i wanna scream on the top of the mountain! like this: "arrggggggghhhhh………" <sigh>

shuccckkkkks!!!! 07.07.07 is my dream date wedding! wahahahahah!! oh well, GOD’s best for me hasn’t arrived yet.. i’m waiting patiently.. yikes……..

anyhow, meron pa namang 08.08.08/09.09.09/10.10.10/11.11.11/12.12.12 .. hahahhah may choices pa rin ako.. bleh

i know he’s just around the corner looking for me but he cannot see me.. "parang movie scene" laughs. :)) while waiting i’ll FOCUS to my first love, JESUS.. i’m in love with YOU!

sing..

the ONE THING, the ONE THING i ask is to be with you..

this is my cry, my ONE (deep/heart’s) desire is to be where you are Lord.. now and forever.. its more than a song.. my ONE desire is to be where you are Lord.. now and forever.. JESUS..

for the past weeks i’m having a hard time to sleep and before i go to bed my heart beats so fast and even more faster, faster than the cheetah and everytime i wake every morning my heart beats soo fast, it’s like a wake up call.. shucks!

in my devotion last saturday with JESUS CHRIST he said to me, "TRUST ME." i couldn’t understand! i feel it was like a hint.. then this termites invade our house, it was like a "plague in the Book of Exodus." so i think i want to move out. it crossed my mind. anyhow…. what’s the significance?.. just dig this!!

YESTERDAY.. [07.02.07]

after 21 years of staying in the place where you’ve already built friendships,…. letting go of it is like ripping of your skin. you want to hold on but "it’s time!" every corner is a memory whether good or bad.. "it’s a PART of who i am today." my past is like a rollercoaster of emotions.. i enjoy every ride of ups and downs..

TODAY..

i’m moving on.. accepting things wholeheartedly even though there is PAIN, PAIN is what makes the person, without PAIN life is boring. you are really human if you know how it feels like to be in PAIN! moving on is the hardest part because you feel every pain BUT no matter what happens i’m gonna face that pain. every step is a decision to make. "one step at a time." and when you looked back you’ve gone so far and tears starts to roll on your cheeks and i will say to myself, "NO TURNING BACK!" i’m moving straight ahead, no swerving to the left or to the right!

changes.. some people doesn’t like change because its hard to adapt to a new things or whatever.. i think change is an exciting life experience.. once you understand it or adapt it or embrace changes it will be easier for you and me.. life is NOT consistent, LIFE is full of inconsistency! nothing in this world is stable, every year is not the same year like it was before.. life is full of momentary troubles it is just but a trouble. ONE THING is constant "JESUS CHRIST", He’s still the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow! when our life is with JESUS, we cannot be shaken, NOTHING can move us because our ROCK is JESUS. God is in control. My times and my life are in HIS hand. I set my clock in GOD’s time. JESUS is never too late nor too early. He comes through ON TIME! TRUST in HIM you will never be disappointed. GOD never fails. "I will NEVER leave you NOR forsake you." sweet JESUS! God’s plan is the best. He knows what’s best for us. God is full of surprises! "expect the unexpected." believe on HIS promises. i’m HOLDING ON to YOU, my FATHER GOD in heaven. GOD…..

NEW LIFE!

sums it up all!! a brighter day is waiting for me tomorrow.. i HOPE in YOU, LORD.. every day is a SPECIAL day.. everyday is never been the same like yesterday.. savor every moment.. just feel it! life is soo short to be wasted.. LOVE more, FORGIVE always, SMILE, SMILE, SMILE.. it makes the face shine like the sun.. hahah!! think happy memories, trashed the bad memories–it is a nightmare–. LIVE life to the fullest.. wherever my life is taking me i will open my arms widely and welcome it with a smile on my face because i know JESUS is with me holding my grip so tightly and i won’t let go JESUS for He is my life! (very well said… hahahah!!)

~whatever it takes, i WILL LIVE for your GLORY, Lord~ GLORY TO YOU, LORD! GLORY! 

[ HAPPY "twentEEn two" BIRTHDAY!! =) ]

hahah! i love this day soo much. loving people!

mah gosh! every people i bumped to is greeting me "happy birthday!". isn’t wonderful??!! laughs. i am lovable.. hahahah!! :))

i’m getting older. [big grin :D] "it doesn’t matter how old we are, what matters most is how we live our life to the fullest. how we maximize our life. how we live. how we appreciate the people we love and loved us back. how we face life’s challenges, trials, struggles. how we overcome and conquer. how we stumble and get up. how we handle failures and never stop dreaming and pursuing our goals [press on!] until something happens. how we let go [leaving what's behind], moved on [start a new life], breaking free [free from everything]. how we LIVE and intimately inLOVE with JESUS CHRIST, hungry for HIM. how we grow deeper in our relationship with our Saviour Jesus Christ the Reedemer of all [once i was lost but now i am found]. how we TRUST God despite of ups and downs of life [trust God though we don't understand him at times, HIS thoughts are higher than ours. TRUST Him with all our hearts, with all our souls, with all that we are. TRUST Him for He knows the perfect plans He in store for us, plans to prosper us and not to harm us, plans to give us hope and a future]."   

in the end of time all of us are destined to be with Him in eternity. JESUS CHRIST is our destiny. the earth is our temporary home. we are a foreigner in this soil. our home is in Heaven. "where you treasure lies, there your heart is. lay treasures in heaven where moth, rust,.. cannot break in. treasures on earth are easily fading, it rottens and can be destroyed, it has no value. a PURE and a CONTRITE heart pleases the Lord. it melts His heart. there are crowns waiting for us in heaven. a personal relationship with Jesus Christ is what He wanted, not our riches, medals, etc. but purely a relationship with JESUS. He wants us, our heart to be captivated by His unfailing love. a PERFECT inner peace comes only from God for He is gentle in Spirit. He is the perfect gentleman. let JESUS be the center of your life starting today and your life will never be the same again. JESUS is REAL. be bless! =) to know JESUS more read your bible everyday and HIS Word is healing to your bones it purges from the deepest part of your heart. only JESUS can touch your deepest core of your hearts, no human love can touch your hearts like JESUS does.

JESUS CHRIST "touching people, changing lives". =)

22 years! i walk a mile and it is not yet over. my journey has only begun! what i become today is because i remained stronger. i will never give up on life, life will give up on me. the way to Him is not easy but by HIS grace, mercy and unfailing love I CAN. as i get higher on the Mountain of God, "the higher you go up, the narrower it gets" and it is not easy. it takes courage, it takes faith to reach my destination on top of the Mountain where i will meet my Saviour Jesus Christ and waiting to hear him say "well done, my faithful servant, levite" with a big grin smile on His face. until that day comes i will persevere and do my purposes in life and fulfilling my calling and accomplished everything. i’m lovin’ mah life no matter what it brings to me. =)

tomorrow…. i want to be..

• a woman of influence
• a woman of God after His own heart
• a woman of moral integrity
• a woman of noble character molded by God
• a woman–passionately inlove with God

tomorrow is my future life, i know i will be much, much better kaye. i’ll wait that to come into being. in Jesus Name. Amen!

yeah! love you guys!! you made my day sooo happy! i will treasure this day eternally. i appreciated all your greetings!! i love you, love you, love you!!!! =)

i’m in state of dissociation!

dissociation, allows you to divert your attention to other things while you’re really in pain. parang "it is not true"!!

being attached to someone (i.e. family, friends..), someone you really cared for is good but when time comes that they need to go for some or not some let’s just say many reasons. it’s like killing you emotionally. you can’t just imagine that they are far away from you and think when will they come back again. that’s why i always say to myself "seize the day! enjoy life to the fullest like there’s no tomorrow because tomorrow may never come". i treasure every moment that i spend with my family and friends and i even stare at them thinking that one day i will never have the chance to look at them like i do today. sad but true! that’s how life works! peace yo!

life is soo short. happiness is a choice! i choose to be happy though sometimes life is a rollercoaster. i enjoy riding in my rollercoaster.

love you guys!! mwaaahugs!! =)

FORGIVENESS

> is a P R O C E S S. . .

> is L e t t i n g   g o. . .

> is L o v i n g. . .

> is G e t t i n g  p a s t  t h e h u r t. . .