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when i think of the memories of yesterday..

the "childhood memories" where everyone is soo INNOCENT

and all you can THINK is pure thoughts..

no malice, your worldliness is not yet awaken..

you CHERISH that moment.. when you found out that LOVE is pure and genuine..

now, we’re old, the feelings still the same, its the physical appearance that changed and you become matured! BUT the feelings will always be there.. it will ALWAYS be a part of you..

our heart, where emotion is.. doesn’t grow old.. our heart remembers and will NOT forget..

the times we had yesterday will always be with me.. i will miss you but its not the place, its the memories we had.. it is in store in your memory bank!!

now, i’m going.. shucks! i will miss you.. our friendship, laughs, innocence, secrets.. i will surely CRY.. i will have a hard time to adjust.. oh, no.. i don’t like to cry.. ang hirap pigilin ng luha..

"babaha ng luha.. luha ng kahapon..

na kay saya, parang lahat ay ayos lang..

walang problema, walang malisya,

puro tawanan lang at laro ng walang humpay..

akala natin ito’y hindi matatapos, pero ngayon..

ngayon, bilang na ang mga araw upang ika’y masilayan sa di kalayuan.. mami miss mo kaya ako? tanong ko sa aking utak..

hanggang tingin ka lang ba, di mo ba ako kakausapin?..

sana di ka rin umiyak tulad ng pagluha ko ngayon pag iyong nalaman ako’y lilisan na sa lugar kung saan tayo’y nagkakilala.."

i cannot believe i’m writing this..

for the past two weeks i am down.. the sadness is ever present! no matter what i do it hides deep down my heart’s vein.. it’s soo REAL! i wanna scream on the top of the mountain! like this: "arrggggggghhhhh………" <sigh>

shuccckkkkks!!!! 07.07.07 is my dream date wedding! wahahahahah!! oh well, GOD’s best for me hasn’t arrived yet.. i’m waiting patiently.. yikes……..

anyhow, meron pa namang 08.08.08/09.09.09/10.10.10/11.11.11/12.12.12 .. hahahhah may choices pa rin ako.. bleh

i know he’s just around the corner looking for me but he cannot see me.. "parang movie scene" laughs. :)) while waiting i’ll FOCUS to my first love, JESUS.. i’m in love with YOU!

sing..

the ONE THING, the ONE THING i ask is to be with you..

this is my cry, my ONE (deep/heart’s) desire is to be where you are Lord.. now and forever.. its more than a song.. my ONE desire is to be where you are Lord.. now and forever.. JESUS..

for the past weeks i’m having a hard time to sleep and before i go to bed my heart beats so fast and even more faster, faster than the cheetah and everytime i wake every morning my heart beats soo fast, it’s like a wake up call.. shucks!

in my devotion last saturday with JESUS CHRIST he said to me, "TRUST ME." i couldn’t understand! i feel it was like a hint.. then this termites invade our house, it was like a "plague in the Book of Exodus." so i think i want to move out. it crossed my mind. anyhow…. what’s the significance?.. just dig this!!

YESTERDAY.. [07.02.07]

after 21 years of staying in the place where you’ve already built friendships,…. letting go of it is like ripping of your skin. you want to hold on but "it’s time!" every corner is a memory whether good or bad.. "it’s a PART of who i am today." my past is like a rollercoaster of emotions.. i enjoy every ride of ups and downs..

TODAY..

i’m moving on.. accepting things wholeheartedly even though there is PAIN, PAIN is what makes the person, without PAIN life is boring. you are really human if you know how it feels like to be in PAIN! moving on is the hardest part because you feel every pain BUT no matter what happens i’m gonna face that pain. every step is a decision to make. "one step at a time." and when you looked back you’ve gone so far and tears starts to roll on your cheeks and i will say to myself, "NO TURNING BACK!" i’m moving straight ahead, no swerving to the left or to the right!

changes.. some people doesn’t like change because its hard to adapt to a new things or whatever.. i think change is an exciting life experience.. once you understand it or adapt it or embrace changes it will be easier for you and me.. life is NOT consistent, LIFE is full of inconsistency! nothing in this world is stable, every year is not the same year like it was before.. life is full of momentary troubles it is just but a trouble. ONE THING is constant "JESUS CHRIST", He’s still the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow! when our life is with JESUS, we cannot be shaken, NOTHING can move us because our ROCK is JESUS. God is in control. My times and my life are in HIS hand. I set my clock in GOD’s time. JESUS is never too late nor too early. He comes through ON TIME! TRUST in HIM you will never be disappointed. GOD never fails. "I will NEVER leave you NOR forsake you." sweet JESUS! God’s plan is the best. He knows what’s best for us. God is full of surprises! "expect the unexpected." believe on HIS promises. i’m HOLDING ON to YOU, my FATHER GOD in heaven. GOD…..

NEW LIFE!

sums it up all!! a brighter day is waiting for me tomorrow.. i HOPE in YOU, LORD.. every day is a SPECIAL day.. everyday is never been the same like yesterday.. savor every moment.. just feel it! life is soo short to be wasted.. LOVE more, FORGIVE always, SMILE, SMILE, SMILE.. it makes the face shine like the sun.. hahah!! think happy memories, trashed the bad memories–it is a nightmare–. LIVE life to the fullest.. wherever my life is taking me i will open my arms widely and welcome it with a smile on my face because i know JESUS is with me holding my grip so tightly and i won’t let go JESUS for He is my life! (very well said… hahahah!!)

~whatever it takes, i WILL LIVE for your GLORY, Lord~ GLORY TO YOU, LORD! GLORY!